Writing about consent yesterday got me so worked up that I decided to push hubby’s limits hard today. I told him that I was going to make him wear the collar and leash I bought for him and take him to the park to walk. He got instantly pissed off and said there was no fucking way and asked why did I have to ruin everything. He was talking like he was done with being my sub or even wanting to move out. It scared the shit out of me. I am still crying as I write this and he is in our son’s room at the other end of the house putting up shelves. Fuck this. I went too far. I cant believe this is happening. How do I backtrack without losing control? Shit.